" I am a survivor of a horrifying mental health battle which trapped me few a years ago following organised work-place harassment, bullying & discrimination that ended up with a long term sick-leave from my last office job (PTSD). It was one of the darkest times that I ever could experience. It was a time that I lost my faith in humanity completely. Then one day, I chose the ancient wisdom of yoga as my only inspiration and I read its main texts again and again, chapter by chapter until I became able to LETGO with no attachments & fear"
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"Who am I? This question has occupied my mind very strongly after my age of 35+, at a time that I felt deeply alienated from the world around me - both in an emotional & intellectual level
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Everything & everyone was unfamiliar, was standing far in distance, cold, threatening and not charming at all. I had no interest or curiosity to discover them anymore, neither to accept them, to approach them, to love them or to understand them
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I was very much in a defense mode and became selfish for my own needs and fairly enough for my own family. I was also in need to be accepted, to be loved, to be approved, to be seen and to be understood more than ever. With this conflicting state of mind, I suffered A LOT! .
The more I tried to protect myself from harm, danger & nonsense around me by wearing my shield of a firm & "strong" woman, the more I became a vulnerable person.
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Life is not always fair, so it got me and pulled me deep down many times since I was born. But a couple of life-events left very deep scars in my mind & heart
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Today, I still ask the same question to myself: Who am I? But the difference is, I stopped seeking the answer from others or trying to define myself according to the given identifications. Yoga Saved My Life 🙏
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Today, I know that “Within us lives the most calm, serene lake of wisdom, the most beautiful, powerful pond of kindness, compassion & clarity..." and I merrily dive into this beauty to find the answers! ☮
