"When it happened I was paralyzed by pain, my fingers were completely numb, my neck felt like I was being stabbed deep in my spine, & my body shut down. They said I managed to pinch nerves going to
both sides of my body on different vertebrae at the base of my neck. They gave me two options: surgery or live with it
Pain was a manifestation of my internal coming to the surface. I heard so many interior thoughts & conversations from individuals within my proximity all at once that I was drowning
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I absorbed so much anxiety, noise, & energy from all of those around me that my body shut down. This is also one of my greatest strengths. I was told to be a rock - and that's who I was. I took in everyone else's pain, hurt, anger, and suffering and I let it fester inside of me. I had no way or understanding of how to release it until it took away my body. With the body out of the way you have to face whats inside of you. If you don't, it will eat you alive
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My wife told me to try yoga and the typical ego card said, “ I don't need help.” With one graceful gesture of love and compassion she showed me the way
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I always liked being with myself and my personal practice was how I learned
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After a long grace period & the beautiful movement to find my soul, yoga saved my life
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We all want immediate satisfaction but the truly wholesome expressions of the beauty of life takes time. I had to understand why I was before I could find who I was
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My teachers were Iyengar, Sivananda & Schiffman. We sat together every morning going through the routine, what the asanas did, and how to flow through them. After a few years the craziest thing happened - I finally turned off everyone else & turned on the fire in my soul
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Finding my true self was intimidating and scary, yet so fruitful and loving. The movement led me in deeper and deeper to find my true purpose and realize through the pain there are true gifts and that my inner turmoil can be used to help others in their healing process
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Giving is the way, for me there is no other 🙏
