"Eight years ago I sat on a bench in a parking lot, in the pouring rain, as night fell. I had just spent more of the inherited money I got when my grandma died on another little plastic zip bag of weed
I was smoking so much & often back then (also taking morphine, sleepingpills, drinking, you name it) that I often forgot my words; actually I often forgot how the sentence was going to end because suddenly I forgot how I had started the sentence or what I was
trying to say in the first place . .
Anyway, I do remember being in a dream state. Dreaming about another life: a life where I was sober, happy, free from addiction, free of trying to numb my constant anxiety & inner hell. It felt so freaking far away at that time . .
I visualized standing in front of people, sharing my message about how it's possible to change. Then I looked at myself with disgust..Who the hell was I, thinking I could help anyone? . .
That dream never died & for that I'm so grateful. I spent several more years being lost, but still had this small voice in my heart saying that my life didn't have to be this way, It could get better
Then came Yoga & meditation. Without which, I may never have healed. . And It was when I dared to turn inside, look deep within, I started the path of growth. By accepting & forgiving myself, by finding a deeper meaning, a deeper connection to life itself & my soul. I am forever grateful for this ancient wisdom, yoga, that today is so accessible for all of us, if we dare to turn inside and look
Today, 8 years after I sat on that bench, I'm over the top grateful for the radical transformation in me . .
Today I went to work on my business & my passion; Today I held a seminar about changing mindset; today I taught 3 yoga & meditation classes. Today I felt good. Today I lived a life that was just a dream in a girls mind 8 years ago .
My past has been the fuel, yoga the fire to create that life & to inspire others. Your past doesn’t have to equal your future, dare to turn in - and allow your inner wisdom to come forth ❤