"When Borderline Personality Disorder took control of my life and sent me into a downward spiral, yoga taught me self-love, resilience, strength, and balance
To treat my BPD, I had Dialectical Behavioural Therapy, which places a big emphasis on mindfulness. And it was through studying the origins of mindfulness that I found yoga
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I was suffering with suicidal ideation, depression, panic attacks, anxiety, disassociation, chronic feelings of emptiness, self harm, self hatred, low self esteem, and manic rage.
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Life was a rollercoaster, and in-between the intense lows, were intense highs.
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Impulsive spending, sex, nights out, moments of intense, ecstatic joy, falling in love in seconds, surges of creativity and inspiration that made me feel invincible.
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It was an emotionally exhausting way to live.
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In the weeks leading up to my decision to get help, I had thrown a knife at my sister, ended my marriage, and punched my fist through the stained glass window of my Dad’s front door. I knew this had to stop.
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I cannot even begin to express how much better my life is right now. Medication, DBT, mindfulness and yoga have changed my life forever.
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Yoga Asana has brought me strength of body and mind. Pranayama breathing and Mindfulness Meditation has helped to calm my thoughts and emotions, and has helped to keep me grounded in the present moment, away from the anxiety and emotions that come with overthinking the past and the future. Ahimsa has taught me that violence and aggression is not the way to express overwhelming emotions, and to show myself some kindness and love.
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Thank you, yoga 🙏☀️
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Laura 💚
