"Yoga saved me from a lifetime of running: running from me, from depression, anxiety, self-destructive behaviour & the need to re-invent myself!
I was 15 the first time I ran away. I remember sitting on my bed with this overwhelming need to get away from me. So, I did!
In my late teens I became part of the 90’s rave culture, travelling up & down the country filming some awesome events. I felt like I was really living, but really, I had just found another way to escape me. It didn’t take long for the all-night partying, days of no sleep & poor diet to take its toll. I walked out on that life, away to London start over
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In London that, I found my first yoga class. The teacher was calm, full of joy & this lit something inside me. I remember leaving that first class feeling lighter, that somehow everything will be ok
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Several re-inventions later I found myself living in the countryside, living the perfect little life. Packaged in a tiny, neat little box, safe & full of boundaries. I tried to be what I thought the perfect mum, wife should be. But whatever I did, it felt wrong, not good enough. I walked around with this big fake smile. I felt invisible, dull, numb. Who the hell was I?
As I approached my 40th birthday, enough was enough
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Tired of running away, trying to escape & numbing my emotions, I started YTT & this is where I began to see the patterns of negative, distorted thoughts. Wow, I did not like myself! I learned how to shine the light on the dark, on everything I had locked away, putting the fragments of my life back together: becoming whole again
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Yoga has taught me how to sit with my feelings, observe them without allowing them to take over. The urge to run or numb when things get challenging lingers, maybe it will never go away completely?! But, Yoga has shown me I have a choice, the tools within me, the strength & willpower to follow my heart & a life of passion & joy ❤🙏"
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(Sheryl is wearing our charity top; 100 % profits donated to @ourmala & @yoga_medicine_seva . Link in bio