"I have always had an anxious character, it grew with me & manifested in every single thing that I do. It could be waking up in the middle of the night in a panic because I think I missed one single point in my lab report or having intense heart palpitations because I got out the door a minute late"
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"In my 2nd year of uni, the anxiety started to take over, starting with an obsession with the time I “wasted” that could have been used for studying & I convinced myself I was going to fail all my exams
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Then the story extended to having my whole future ruined. It sounded so real in my mind that I believed it as truth. I cried every day, I couldn’t eat or sleep. There was a heavy weight in my heart pulling me down into a dark hole .
Desperate to get out of that ‘hole’, I took my dad’s advice to try meditation & began to just sit in silence & focus on my breath
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Amazingly, whenever I am in that space, my mind seems to slow down. For the first time in my life, I realized that I had been unconscious about the constant chatter in mind! Almost every time after meditation, I felt the weight in my heart lift a little lighter & I could think clearer. A year later, I felt the urge to begin an asana practice, especially as I spen all day sat researching in the lab
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Without knowing about the theory of yoga, I stuck with practice because it made me feel good. It gave me clarity & integrity in the midst of depression. It made me realize that the stories & thoughts that I tell myself AREN’T REAL
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My depressive episode was my doorway to living a conscious life, & I'm thankful for the lessons it taught me
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After undertaking my first teacher training for Ashtanga Vinyasa Yoga in 2018, I became fascinated by the possibilities that yoga could bring to my life, I finally am starting to have a clue what yoga is about; It’s not about touching my forehead to my toes, instead, It’s a way of life, a way to be & a way to heal. There is so much still yet to be learned & my journey of transformation from a worrier to a warrior has only just started 🙏
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