"The year was 2013. I was completely engulfed in the prescription pill world & cycles. This is where I lost myself. This is where I damned my self & everyone in my path. I don't like to think about this year. Because it brings me such shame still
A year later 2014 & I'm now on a 3 day hold in a mental hospital for a suicide attempt. My fragile marriage was on the rocks. The friendships & family were coming unglued. I was completely at fault. I was a completely shitty human. I was rock bottom
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The year was 2015. My first sober year. No more pain pills. No more anxiety meds. No more cigarettes. This year I had began to rise from the ashes of my despair. And then the pregnancy test came back positive, & instinctively, I shed all that did not serve me. Fake people, bad people, lessening my consumption of animal products. And through this process, I began to manifest my pain in a different form. In physical pain. My sciatica had came rolling in along with pregnancy. So much so that life felt miserable in the midst of my blessing & transformation. Not to mention I was lonely. I don't think I even knew how to be a good person or friend any more. But I would try. Then the pain became so much to bare. My OBGYN was actually sitting across from me recommending back surgery while pregnant. Umm no. No fucking way
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So in my final swearing off of modern medicine (disclaimer I do believe it has a place but not for me during this time), I switched to a midwife and began #day1 of #yoga. I looked up every single piece of information I could on poses to heal sciatica & slipped spinal discs. I followed so many inspirational women on ig some even pregnant yogis. And my big affirmation came one day when I was reading a post from @beachyogagirl ...she said she had healed her back issues, same as mine through yoga & inversions & listening to her own body. She went against her doctors warning & did forward folds
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What an inspiration this whole IG yoga community has been. You women, literally all of you have saved my life ❤
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The year is 2018. I am whole. I am healthy. I am healed. I am reborn. Namaste 🙏
