"I've lived with anxiety & paranoia disorders since the age of 5, when I saw my mother beaten in front of me during a robbery
When a child witnesses an event like this, his behaviour & character changes. Thinking he has to defend his life at any moment, he becomes protective, aggressive
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Everything was about fear, anger, persecution: I saw evil everywhere, always ready to fight for survival & saw the worst in everyone around me. It was difficult to find peace, a deep connection with people
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20 years later, a friend introduced me to yoga, she saw the chaos in my mind & the powerful yang energy that needed to be cleared & channeled. She gave me this gift. Instantly addicted, I would practice for hours, Sometimes emotions would pour out, but I could feel the transformation kicking in & I'd always attain a new found peace of mind at the end
. I reached relaxed & meditative states like never before, something that competitive swimming & martial arts had never achieved. Peace: being in the present moment, nowhere & everywhere at the same time. Stillness. Not thinking, obsessing. Just breathing
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I decided to deepen the learning & went to India, an adventure: visiting different ashrams, from the south to the north in the himalayas
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It was a struggle, at times. I learned to sit in silence, for hours. After many months of practice, I could experience altered states of consciousness during meditation. And I witnessed there was something bigger. The source
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Yoga teaches you to not depend on external conditions, being at peace with yourself first
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Yoga is now part of my life forever & I aim to become a yoga teacher because I want to share this knowledge with those who need it & spread light & hope in this world 🙏 Julian"
