"Eight miscarriages & a traumatic birth led to PTSD & depression: #yogasavedmylife" .

Meet @forever.learn.lindsay. These are her words ❤

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"Yoga has helped me through so much in my life it’s why I became a teacher

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When I was 22 I was diagnosed with a chromosome abnormality called a translocation. It causes miscarriage, a “lethal abnormality”. I ended up having 8 miscarriages in total; 3 live births

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I was sad & isolated, but I never saw a therapist or understood it to be any type of trauma.

The birth of my third son was quite an event. He was stuck in my birth canal & there was a point where we thought one of us wasn’t going to make it.

I came home with a healthy son, but

I was no longer myself

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I'd had bouts of depression before, but this time I didn’t want to get out of bed, my brain was overloaded & sometimes I couldn’t read or form my thoughts into words. Eventually I felt like I didn’t want to live. At that point I called a therapist. The therapist told me I had postpartum depression & post traumatic stress disorder caused by the traumatic birth experience & trauma endured over a long period of time due to the miscarriages

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I started attending a public yoga class for the first time because I thought being around people might help.

I told my teacher about my depression & how I needed to get better, & she said maybe I just needed to be sad & I needed to let myself feel that sadness. I think it was the first time anybody ever gave me permission to really feel pain. She taught me that I needed to acknowledge what hurt, & somehow that was very healing

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Before yoga I wanted to escape my story. Yoga taught me to be with my pain, before I was trying to escape my pain & my body which was impossible & caused me great suffering.

What I needed was to accept my body & all of its flaws & let myself feel it fully.

Yoga taught me how to sit with my darkness & hear what it has to say: use it as an opportunity to learn & grow. Darkness is no longer something I have to fear or escape: Darkness & difficulty are my teachers

. Because of yoga I no longer need to escape myself. I’ve learned to love myself, failures & all 🙏

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Lindsay ❤