I spent my life thinking I was broken, broken to the core. Broken because I never fought when something horrible happened to me. Broken because whatever life brought to me, however horrible it was I just stood by, lived it & dealt with the consequence. Broken because I was depressive. Broken because I hurt myself
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Have you heard of traumatic amnesia? I never understood why I always though it was normal that bad things happened to me, why I thought it was normal that people was destructive with me. Until a year ago
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Thanks to yoga and a dedicated meditation practice I started to uncover a part of my life I had willingly forgotten.
The first image that came back to me was a dark room, a hiding place where I was hoping HE would not find me...
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it took me months of meditation & yoga to uncover the rest of the story. To recover what I had blocked for all those years: I was sexually abused by my godfather from 5 to 11
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It took me 20 years to uncover this fact that enlightened me and my mechanisms. This event that I blocked for 20 years still influenced my behavior. It created destructive patterns that I was never really able to understand until this gift
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Without yoga and meditation I would have never had the strength to fight for myself, I would have never trusted myself enough to be strong enough to open the door of my memory
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Yoga is a gift, yoga allowed me to discover myself and my past. Yoga is the key to know yourself and your strength. Yoga is the Union of one with oneself. Yoga saved my life so many times 💚