"During these past several years I have walked through the darkest of emotions. Depression, anxiety, worthlessness, lethargy & complete hopelessness: above all, powerlessness
When became a yoga teacher, I didn't know what was happening at first but the flash backs were so severe I thought I was having an out of body experience. Then I learned about PTSD & am now working through my recovery
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Little did I know what I was about to face while becoming a yoga teacher. I had left home at an early age & found dance as my therapy. I had great friends & a professional body builder as my boyfriend teaching me all they knew. I found positive outlets for the challenges I faced in my home life & achieved successes in fitness competitions & as a fitness model
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I had some memories of my challenged child hood but a forgotten past. I remember the better times with my loving grandparents. I remember laughing with family & feeling loved. I was always involved with sports, school activities, dance & cheerleading. Some how I had blocked the dark memories out that I cannot share
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My first flash back was such a vivid memory of being left all alone as a young toddler in my crib. It was dark & I was crying & felt such fright that in remembering this it literally sent tingling chills up my spine
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At first I didn’t realize what was happening & thought to myself what a horrible thing to think but soon after I realized that this was in fact a true memory of my past
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Thank God, the flashbacks have diminished & ceased in the past 6 months.
Becoming a yoga teacher gave me my power back. I knew while in certain asanas what muscles were stretching & that chakras were opening energetically. Both physically & emotionally there was a healing taking place inside of my body & soul. I have since found my dharma which is to teach Trauma Sensitive Yoga & I am working on bringing asana, prana & meditation together to practice. Trauma Sensitive Yoga & the union of the mind, body & breath can truly create a safe space for trauma survivors to heal. I found my medicine on the mat ❤"
