"3 miscarriages
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1 failed round of IVF
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4 lost baby embryos .
2 surgeries
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471 pills
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52 needles
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21 doctor appointments
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102 pregnancy tests...& too many tears to count
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I don’t think I could have survived the last 2 years without my yoga practice. I’ve held on to it for dear life, meditating, praying, and trying to get through the pain
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"My #JourneyToBaby is over. I didn’t get my rainbow baby. I will never have a child of my own. Not a day goes by that I don’t grieve and feel the aching in my heart. I do my absolute best, though, to be strong, continue my practice, put my faith in God, and focus on the blessings that I have. Some days, the grief wins... but that’s ok. I give myself grace, find poses that comfort me, let the tears go on my mat, and know that tomorrow is a new day
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I’m so grateful for all that I’ve learned in my practice, and I’m already stronger than I ever thought I could be. Some days I need an intense power practice to push through the pain. Other days I need a gentle flow to stretch the knots of stress out of my aching body & mind
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I should add, I not only went through all of this, but I did it all while raising another woman’s child. That’s right. I’m a stepmom too. (More yoga, please!) Stepmom is the hardest job I’ve ever had. I cannot even begin to describe the heartache, pain, toxic behavior, & nastiness that I endure on an already challenging journey. Yoga helps me find the patience, humility, & love I need to endure 🙏
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Yoga has helped me tremendously through my journey. It continues to play a pivotal role in my healing and growth. With yoga, faith, and love... I feel unstoppable 💚
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