"I tried to kill myself when I was 18... My path eventually led me to yoga. Yoga didn’t fix anything.
But, it has given me tools"
. "It’s #worldmentalhealthday & this is a subject close to my heart
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Both my brother & I have spoken publicly about our struggles with mental health. We speak about it as an ongoing thing that we experience every day. It isn’t finished, & it probably won’t be finished
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I tried to kill myself when I was 18.
I had been in a secret same-sex relationship & when that ended, I got thrown back into the closet but it felt like a prison. I get like a liar. I could see all the faces I lied to and my faith was tearing me to pieces.
Obviously I didn’t go through with it
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But, I did start exercising for the first time ever doing Aikido at St Andrews & bumbling through the gym.
My path eventually led me to yoga
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Yoga didn’t fix anything.
But, it has given me tools. Something that would have thrown me off of the precipice in the past now just stirs a little. The dark depths of my moods are less extreme
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The whispers are still there. It’s like a demon behind me waiting for me to be in pain enough, exhausted enough, or beaten down enough. It’s a seductive siren song
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To any of you struggling, if you fee you want to comment, I am taking the time to reply to everyone today. Writing down ones story can radically shift the perception of it
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Evidence suggests that talking about suicide in particular doesn’t give the person ideas but can stall the process
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So, let’s talk.
Comment or send me a DM
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You can also search for services in your area like @samaritanscharity in the U.K. I’ll be posting links in my stories today for other resources
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#suicide #suicideprevention #itsgoodtotalk #youarenotalone #mentalhealthisimportant #yogi #yogastory #menofyoga #yogamen #yogalove
