"Every time I do it, I promise myself it’s the last time. I flush the toilet and move on. This time it was a particularly violent purge. It was so violent I burst all the blood vessels in my eyes and walked around looking like a demon for the next 2 weeks. It's ok. That's how I felt on the inside anyway" . "When you have an eating disorder you feel like there is a monster inside of you constantly lurking in the background waiting for any trigger to come up to destroy your life. I dealt with this insanity for 12 years in addition to numbing out with alcohol and pills . . Yoga came to me at my most desperate point in life. I had a choice: find a way out through light or kill myself because of the misery. I remember that moment when I found God on my mat. After sweating, bending, and twisting, I laid in Savasana and all the pain and hate melted away from my body and I felt whole. In this moment I knew there was more than my suffering, and I would spend the rest of my life making conscious contact with that deep place of peace and serenity within me. Before, I'd almost died and now, I share healing with others through my story and program, Thriving After Addiction . . I don’t believe that addiction is a permanent disease or that it defines us. I believe it can be cured. I think it’s a symptom of a deeper problem that is only discovered with a lot of work. Your addiction may even be the greatest gift you’ve been given. It can show you the work you need to do to become the person you are meant to be ❤ .