Meet @seawithinyoga sharing her #worldcancerday #yogasavedmylife story with us. These are her words

"My fiancé was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma of the oral tongue on Thanksgiving 2011. How could someone who went to the Airforce Academy, played Division 1 football, & never smoked a cigarette receive such a horrifying diagnosis? This was & is the question to this day that replays in my mind"

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"Just six grueling months after his diagnosis, with me as his primary care-taker, he passed away. I held his memorial service on my 30th birthday. As all of my friends were getting married & having babies, I was a “widow”, living at my parent’s house, having to start my life completely over

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I instinctively wanted to curl inward & disappear. I became numb. I was told that I had PTSD from what I had witnessed throughout his illness. I went to my first power yoga class & remember sobbing during shavasana. I walked out & knew this was exactly what I needed. Yoga saved my life .


The hour & a half at yoga was the one place I could be completely present & my mind could finally rest. My anxiety & fears had been pushed to the max and I had lost complete control. For my personality, this was torture. Yoga was a way to push myself on my own terms

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I could have chosen drugs or another path, but I chose yoga and Hospice counseling, which was the respite for me. They say that yoga releases physical memory & I believe that with every sweat drop, a negative memory faded. Every song, every phrase the instructors used, I felt was directed at me

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The message was to move on & to not feel guilty about it, to take care of myself, & to recognize how strong I was. I have always been a private person & never shared my journey with my yoga studio, or anyone for that matter, except my family and friends

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I am also very intuitive & couldn’t ignore the many signs being sent to me. I became a certified kids yoga instructor in hopes to instill this practice in children, including the two toddlers that I have been blessed with

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I hope to complete my 200-hour certification in the future, to help others who may be grieving & to let them know there is hope & there is always yoga 🙏